Chaotic House

These past few days, guilt, sadness and heartbroken have been my cocktail. Clearly the bartender love to make me swallow them. Thank you Satan. Next time, make it a virgin one.

A metaphoric sense 

The thing is, aku rasa sedih and serba salah. sometimes aku rasa, I dont fit to have even a best friend. Sometimes, I do feel like a useless piece of bull crap.

That is one thing. the other thing is i feel hopeless. Why? maybe these past few days, I've been back and forth to PPUM, checking with the doctor about my High Blood Pressure. Here's the thing. I want to shed some pounds, but I need more motivation, not only just self-motivation.

And the other thing is I feel guilty with my parents. I am still not being honest with them. I dont have to be, atleast I need to stop doing "IT". The addiction is crazy :(.

Please preay for my self-control guys